Not in me

Optimism wasn't a part in me.
Guess,i used to think gud.and not exactly think positive.(now dat i've sed it,i'd stick and argue fr mah line!!..wotever on earth it means)
For me,things in your control can take a shape,exactly or close to wot u had imagined.U jst need to work for it.
And things,dat is ultimately based on decisions made by others,i wudn't wana be an optimistic,tongue sticking nd tail waggin doggy.Probb,it jst keeps u cool.or sane,if i can say so.But,i kinda got mah doubts on it working.
A li'l background on the above words:Mah promotion is due.The economy is hit.And 10 mins with the boss :).