Timing:

U wait for something.U wait for it very very patiently.U wait for it for a long long time.U try.U keep trying.U try harder.U think lots.U think more than u supposed to.It more becomes of u waiting for a time to come,rather than the something dat u been waiting for.It happens as such,that something, isnt there in ur mind anymore,but,it is the someTIME that u luking for.

U start looking for a thing;it ends up being a time that u wait for..Do u jst lose focus on ur interest? or do u just feel its better to stay put and let things occur wen it has to?

A long wait always successfully manages to drown out the excitement.A long wait ensures that ud obviously want EVERYTHING out of whatever that u WANTED and u wudnt want to settle for any compromise.only nd only bcs u waited this long!!...The excitement is only wen u get wot u wanted,AS IT IS...else,its nothing short of a dampener..!!

Atta Boy

"Good good.Sandeep,very good"
"the good thing is,he's so closely involved,even during........."
"great job.keep it up."
And the barrage of Goods kept coming.From all ends.For over a period of days.
But it dint make me feel good even for once.Not even for a minute.Good things were being said,nice things were being said,each thing was justified,all heads nodded in acceptance,received the longest footage amongst them all,but still,not even once,did it make me feel good,proud or anything for that matter.
I wouldnt say,I keep getting them.On the contrary,this came after a long time.Not that I ever wanted it,or secretly hoped for it,just that,its more of the fact that I feel this came for the wrong reasons.Again.Its a guess,i may not be right here..but then being around for long and knowing the bunch,does cement it.
Months back,there occured few conversations.Coupla of them,long ones,short ones,threatening ones,disappointed ones,dissent ones,unapproving ones,bad ones..And I see this appreciation for my effort as an outcome of those and not bcs they really do.
"Been really good.Now we got one challenge that we think you may be able to do it.We want you to ........."
Normally,a person would be all charged up.Taking it up,highly motivated and begin to get going.But not me.I dint see it as an extra work that was asked outta me,just that I simply saw it as motivation techniques,making me feel important,etc etc..I simply pushed it away.I knew it right then,me aint getting mahself to do it either.It was like :"oh.yeah??...balls"....

I wana tel them,these aint gona work wit me.Save the niceties for someone else.Save the bouquets,cheers,claps,cmon's,'u can do its',goods,...I dnt need them and they aint gona help one bit.Dont play with words and sentences,for me aint gona get tricked by them.Stay away from me,else either of us wouldnt like it.

Dunno if its abt me.Dunno if its abt them.
For all I kno is,things around aint cool as I'd want it to be.Its getting static.They refuse to see things thru.I refuse to believe that they seeing it as well.I refuse to believe that they are trying as hard as they claim to be.I refuse to participate.I refuse to play ball

You catch, I catch

There are certain words that our brains remeber.That our brain synapses registers in itself.Thats spoken out in some particular context,and its perceived by the other in some other.Here lies the underlyin opportunity,when u can use or misuse it.And,it does help a great deal!!.

The word of the day: Ehsaan.

We callin our supplier:arre,kidhar hai maal??.aap tab dene waale the,itna din ho gaya..aisa thodi chalega..whack whack....yeh kya.
Them: Saab.thoda late ho gaya..dete hai..pakka next week.
We: Next week lekar mein kya karu??..Merko aaj chahie..kal fsctory pahuncha chahie.Karo kuch bhi..
Them: Nahi hoega sir.Pehle kabhi aisa hua hai kya??.
We: Pehla ka chodo.Abhi chahihe.Next week,de kar,eshsaan kar rahe ho kya!!
(there!!..u realise,he can hold it thereafter)
Then: Sir,aisa kya baat kar rahe.Aap aisa kaisa bol sakte ho..Yeh galat hai.Ab aapko ache se bol rahe hai,nahi milega,koshish tho hum kar hi rahe hai na.Aur aap ulta baat kar rahe ho.NEXT WEEK...

Now,tho ders no ways u can get it immediately.Ur ego stops u from requesting and asking for help.U've lost it.

well.on another occassion,and on another instance.
Customer calls: Where's my system??Its been beyond delivery!!
Us: Sir,we got sum shortages.It might get delayed for another week.
Them: Why did u all commit a date then??.
Us: we were anticipation it to reach us,unforutanately,there's been a delay.We are sorry.
Them: sorry wot sorry.I dont want ur shit next week.I want it to be dispathced 2moro...Next week de ke,ehsaan mat karo!!
(bingo!!..he's is a dead meat)
Us: Sir,dont talk in such language.There's been a delay about which we can do nothin.And look at d way,u talkin!!..Is this a language to be used.We will update u next week.Bye
Them: err..ok...

There can be more as these.It takes a nice ear,to take them in.And heck!!,u need dis,wen u r bein roasted.Trust me,if u can catch dem and use dem well,den u r outta of it.

Add-ons

First they said : “If you want something badly,you’d get it !!”
Then they said : “If you want something badly,you gotta work hard for it.And you’d get it”
Then they said : “If you want something badly,you gott work hard for it,give up everything else,focus on the one thing dat you want.And...you’d get it”
Then came : “Look for the thing that you want.Do not get distracted.Work hard.With a bit of luck,you’d surely get it ONE DAY ”
Then came: “Its important that luck favours you.Jumping the gun,always back fires.Patience is what you need.”
Then : Opportunity is where luck meets preparation.But again,if it has to happen,it will happen.Just a matter of time”
Then : If not now,there’s always a next time.Just do not stop trying.”


Life’s full of add-ons.Just that,you never know,what gets added to it.But hell!!...there always seems to some damn thing!!!!

Of the Good and the Bad:

There's always an attribute attached to the the things that u do.There's alwez a right or a wrong way to do things.There's alwez an upside and a downside to the way u luk at things.There's alwez a gud and a bad choice.Everythin is binary.A 0 or a 1.

What drives u to these?Wots in for an indivdual wen he makes dis kinda choice.Wots in for a person wen he does a gud thing or makes a gud choice??...Wot does it take to stick to a bad thing and live with it.Having no qualms,no issues,no nothing with being bad and live happily eva after!!...

I guess,wot takes a person to be OK with his wrong doing can be
1)he doesnt realise,its bad.
2)dats exactly wot he wants to do and basks in its success.

The gud guy always makes it well.But then,he gotta take-off and move on,until he's got an adversary.But,d sad thing is,d gud aint actually able to win over the bad guys.He can end up havin a bettr life,better feeling but heck,wen it cums to a one on one face-off,he's lost it.
Wots also interesting is,its d bad that goes on silently with all its bad motives in place.And its d gud dat picks up the fight with the bad.The bad,wud sit back,study and hit back.The gud fights back,but even before it has started,they give up.They know,dis is not d place to be.Result:The Smirk ends up on the Bad guys'face. Happier,healthier,meaner and sicker!!.

The loser,wud live on a hope and an alwez unfulfilled oath that he will be back.But no!!Once out,it's a struggle.It's hard work.It's patience and experience that puts him at a place,wherein he's at peace.The lost out fight forgotten.The oath,invalid.
So??is it all worth it??.Well.not until u r affected.Fighting wen u r bein molested is one thing,but fighting only bcs u see d other person in an orgasm,is stupid.

Gud ppl hav cum and gone.Some did well,some close to doin well.The bad guys have stayed.They are damn well and doing pretty too!!..Their scores at an all time high.And ready for any one...Ready for anything good to get annhilated.

Luck by chance??:

I have come to realise that me been very lucky with my life.and im indeed grateful to be so, too.
To look back,nothin awfully bad has dawned upon me.My life's been really easy.Havn't had to endure hardships,so to say.My results, placements, jobs, family, finance, happiness,friends,days,health, peace, etc cud just have been worse,cud hav been bad,cud have been not so good,cud have been anything,but no,they aint or never been anythin for me to complain about.
Needless,cribbing and sulking are natural,but then,those can be excused.
Just cant use the words setbacks,bad times,ill-fate,destiny etc to describe few issues that i mite hav encountered.They have all been manageable.They have all been fringe.
Life's been gud to me.The GODS' been gud to me.Amen.

Been a while

Dunno if i shud categorize it as my second or third attempt.But ya,it sure is one.Again.A very very serious one.
As each day passes,realisation strikes,patience fades,frustration rises,irritation sinks,peace takes a beating!!.
This time,im tryin sumthn else.Drifted away totally.On the prev occasions,it was simply wanting to get out.But this has more reasons beyond just wanting to break free.
Obv,age aint keeping up either.And this has to happen.Now.Lagech!!
This added to the ever flourishing mind-sets that u gotta train urself:-Hope,Optimism,Confidence,radiance and many more.
Well,optimistic,yes,i am being one.Hope,yes,hoping well too.Confident,not sure..Just the fact that its not been much time,is keeping tabs on the fact, that me haven't failed yet.But then,hell,it still hasn't worked our well so far either.

"Hope is a gud thing and gud thing never dies".Guess,these lines have stopped working too.!!