Spate of incidents:

The act of buildin morale,the act of buildin up courage,the act of buildin up confidence,these acts are undoubtedly the best thing dat u ever get to do for urself.For one simple reason,these are somethin dat u got do it and none else can.They cud initiate,but there's always this thing called,feel for urself.
Yup.I did that for myself.It was good to implement,was gud to speak abt it.Ppl think highly of u as well.And even,in that moment,you may not kno that these are mere 'feel-good-for-an-instant' stuff,only to help u move further.Everytime u say to urself or others 'I wudnt regret my decision'' ,there still remains a hint of doubt in u.The doubts,wich are difficult to do away with.But just that,it wud help u to make a decision in the first place.Otherwise,probb u wud neva end up makin one.
I did make a decision.And honestly,nothin was wrong in it.Honestly,the doubts,wotever they wer,i was able to reason with them,nd dey understud it as well.For me,d decisions werent bad.It was highly calculated,and well thot-of.Stil,things had to go wrong.And then begins the back-tracking,which i feel was the worst thing to happen.
I guess,i had 2 choices: to hang in and fight and the other,to fight and walk away.Both wud hav been a comfortable pick.But instead,wot normally happens is,u end up doubting ur very first decision.U end up regretting on the choice dat u earlier made only to land up with the 2 new ones.And, with any fresh choices that's on your face,you r quite sure,that things indeed went wrong.
A decision is being blamed at.A step that you make,is bein looked down upon.And amidst all this,you r in a spot,to make another one.You think and talk abt it a lot.And that reinstates your resolve to make a new decision,as if wot u jst made and screwed up,wasnt enough!!.
All these counts on as experiences.But in my opinion,there's no learning out of it.Bcs,you did nothing wrong to learn out of it.You jst tuk a step to land at a right place.They remain as stories to be told.Thats all it ends up as.Mere,worthless stories.

Doing Nothing

Had a month long programme of doin nothing.And nothing can beat this.
You simply kno,there needs to be done nothing.The act of doing nothing.And its doable.And one shud do this once in a while.
Went closer to nature.Had a brief period of roughness in mumbai.Ended up being at a place calld KARE,an ayurvedic and yoga centre,in a hillock with mulshi river flowing beneath it.Awesome place.Had a nice 4 days there.But the downside was,i kept worryin abt the money i was blowing up.And yes,i did have reasons to.I was the only middle class guy there.The rest wer dollar earners,and that explained their fortnight long and month long stay!!.
Nevertheless,met some fine set of ppl.Heard some nice life stories.Across the globe,u wud hav ppl with similiar work issues.Ppl quitting out of raw deals.Ppl working real hard to learn and amass their knowledge and put into use.The constant will to learn is what amazed me.They refused to be a part of routine and chose to learn instead.Not complainin or worryin about wot holds for them in future,but jst d hope,dat doin sumthn new,will work to their advantange.
Security,wot we indians yearn for,is missing in them.And,i believe,thats the only reason,that adds up to their will,that gives them a direction to live in the present.
If asked,as to wot was the best thing for me,in those 4 days,i gues it were those conversations.I was moved.And the best part was,I dint relate or compare with how me or we (those in similar situation) live our life.Bcs only 2 things make our lifestyle:Salary and Travelling. Aint that sick???
Wot makes their liefstyle:Happiness and Knowledge.Gues,a kind of faith exists in them,an inherent feeling,that these are the two things for wich they'd accountable for.The rest has been or will be taken care of.
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