Had a month long programme of doin nothing.And nothing can beat this.
You simply kno,there needs to be done nothing.The act of doing nothing.And its doable.And one shud do this once in a while.
Went closer to nature.Had a brief period of roughness in mumbai.Ended up being at a place calld KARE,an ayurvedic and yoga centre,in a hillock with mulshi river flowing beneath it.Awesome place.Had a nice 4 days there.But the downside was,i kept worryin abt the money i was blowing up.And yes,i did have reasons to.I was the only middle class guy there.The rest wer dollar earners,and that explained their fortnight long and month long stay!!.
Nevertheless,met some fine set of ppl.Heard some nice life stories.Across the globe,u wud hav ppl with similiar work issues.Ppl quitting out of raw deals.Ppl working real hard to learn and amass their knowledge and put into use.The constant will to learn is what amazed me.They refused to be a part of routine and chose to learn instead.Not complainin or worryin about wot holds for them in future,but jst d hope,dat doin sumthn new,will work to their advantange.
Security,wot we indians yearn for,is missing in them.And,i believe,thats the only reason,that adds up to their will,that gives them a direction to live in the present.
If asked,as to wot was the best thing for me,in those 4 days,i gues it were those conversations.I was moved.And the best part was,I dint relate or compare with how me or we (those in similar situation) live our life.Bcs only 2 things make our lifestyle:Salary and Travelling. Aint that sick???
Wot makes their liefstyle:Happiness and Knowledge.Gues,a kind of faith exists in them,an inherent feeling,that these are the two things for wich they'd accountable for.The rest has been or will be taken care of.
Love it :) :)
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Rolling a dice :) :
"He got a KT again"
"It happens,not bcs he aint studyin,luck matters a lot"
I dint realise,wot was gona cum for the rest of my engineering days,after i sed dat.Everytime,d chance came,dey nagged!!..nagged like anything.
"Great!!.dnt study.Luck leke bhaith,pass ho jaayega"
"wot?? U think u gona get lucky nd sail thru??"
Well..i kinda did sail thru..And yup,id still stand by wot i had sed.Wotever it may be,wotever strikes ya,gud or bad,luck has a role to play.I used to,and still believe,luck has a role as much as anythin else does.So do I think, dat Faith is another thing,and so is optimism and ofcourse,d effort and hard work...errr...hope too.. :D .. .Having listed out the 'Hygiene Factors' here (yup.I am almost a MBA,I am authorised to use irrelevant terms,nd make it sound cool :P ... Hertzberg bhai shall explain..),it tells me one thing very clearly,dat I dont kno a shit abt wot is it that I truly believe in.Just knowin the attributes aint all,there got to be somethin that one has to bank on and follow.So,basically,i dunno wot is dat i depend on.
Nice start. :) . Now,the question:when ppl make important decisions,wot is it that they depend on?? Luck or Optimism??.do they just feel lucky or think they wud get lucky,nd go ahead wit it?Or do they simply know,dat things gona work out for them,just d way they want it to??..Im talkin abt very imp decisions here,wen there's nothin around,no factors to weigh upon and absolutely no damn back-up!!...
I dont know wot one does,when they feel or think neither of d above.But still,d decision has to be made.
Sumtimes experience plays a role,ur probbability of successes and failures too help ya decide,but again,such major 'decision-taking' chances dont cum so often(God,if dats d case,den hats off to those who surf thru !!) and ofcourse,there's always a fuckin first time !!! Wot the hell do u do then??..As I said,hangin on or hoping for times to change aint gona help here,u gotta decide---NOW....
Tuff one!!..truly a tuff one !!...
"It happens,not bcs he aint studyin,luck matters a lot"
I dint realise,wot was gona cum for the rest of my engineering days,after i sed dat.Everytime,d chance came,dey nagged!!..nagged like anything.
"Great!!.dnt study.Luck leke bhaith,pass ho jaayega"
"wot?? U think u gona get lucky nd sail thru??"
Well..i kinda did sail thru..And yup,id still stand by wot i had sed.Wotever it may be,wotever strikes ya,gud or bad,luck has a role to play.I used to,and still believe,luck has a role as much as anythin else does.So do I think, dat Faith is another thing,and so is optimism and ofcourse,d effort and hard work...errr...hope too.. :D .. .Having listed out the 'Hygiene Factors' here (yup.I am almost a MBA,I am authorised to use irrelevant terms,nd make it sound cool :P ... Hertzberg bhai shall explain..),it tells me one thing very clearly,dat I dont kno a shit abt wot is it that I truly believe in.Just knowin the attributes aint all,there got to be somethin that one has to bank on and follow.So,basically,i dunno wot is dat i depend on.
Nice start. :) . Now,the question:when ppl make important decisions,wot is it that they depend on?? Luck or Optimism??.do they just feel lucky or think they wud get lucky,nd go ahead wit it?Or do they simply know,dat things gona work out for them,just d way they want it to??..Im talkin abt very imp decisions here,wen there's nothin around,no factors to weigh upon and absolutely no damn back-up!!...
I dont know wot one does,when they feel or think neither of d above.But still,d decision has to be made.
Sumtimes experience plays a role,ur probbability of successes and failures too help ya decide,but again,such major 'decision-taking' chances dont cum so often(God,if dats d case,den hats off to those who surf thru !!) and ofcourse,there's always a fuckin first time !!! Wot the hell do u do then??..As I said,hangin on or hoping for times to change aint gona help here,u gotta decide---NOW....
Tuff one!!..truly a tuff one !!...
Friday, July 23, 2010
Givin Up
Givin up.One of the hardest decision,dat each of us wud def encounter @ multiple times in life.Its as imp as it is hard to do..
U give up on ppl,on things,jst so dat u get wot u want,Or probb,u think the givin up is a step towards it.
It could be either to sweep aside sumthn,or could also be to get sumthn on its expense.And the obvious literal meaning of it :to lose it.To accept failure.
Different kinds of reactions follows after u hav dun dat,which depends upon each individual who maintains a basic idea of Giving up in his mind.
1.Give up and leave: I cant do this anymore.This is not wot I wanted.This is not wot i signed up for.
2.Give up and try: Hell wit this one.I'd try for wot comes next.And i'd do well.
3.Give up and wait :If it has to happen,it will.I wont bother abt it much.
4.Not give up,fight : Things will change.And,it will change for good.
I have come to believe,dat its only FAITH,dat makes and breaks ur decisions,dat influences your thoughts.Its faith,dat motivates or demotivates you to try or leave.Its Faith,dat makes you think that His will is gona make things better and hence makes you wait.Its faith in yourself,dat tells you to fight and win.Its faith in others,dat gets you to re-think on giving up on somebody.
Its only that,I dont seem to have enough of it.My struggles,could have been different too.Probb,it would.Someday.........
U give up on ppl,on things,jst so dat u get wot u want,Or probb,u think the givin up is a step towards it.
It could be either to sweep aside sumthn,or could also be to get sumthn on its expense.And the obvious literal meaning of it :to lose it.To accept failure.
Different kinds of reactions follows after u hav dun dat,which depends upon each individual who maintains a basic idea of Giving up in his mind.
1.Give up and leave: I cant do this anymore.This is not wot I wanted.This is not wot i signed up for.
2.Give up and try: Hell wit this one.I'd try for wot comes next.And i'd do well.
3.Give up and wait :If it has to happen,it will.I wont bother abt it much.
4.Not give up,fight : Things will change.And,it will change for good.
I have come to believe,dat its only FAITH,dat makes and breaks ur decisions,dat influences your thoughts.Its faith,dat motivates or demotivates you to try or leave.Its Faith,dat makes you think that His will is gona make things better and hence makes you wait.Its faith in yourself,dat tells you to fight and win.Its faith in others,dat gets you to re-think on giving up on somebody.
Its only that,I dont seem to have enough of it.My struggles,could have been different too.Probb,it would.Someday.........
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
The day your passion resigns!!
Do what you like,and you'd be happy!!.
Do what you are passionate about,you'd be really happy!!.
Better still,turning your passion,to a profession,there would never be a dull moment in your life!!.
Passion:A strong or extravagant fondness, enthusiasm, or desire for anything.
Few of the recent movies,that I can remember,which conforms to the above "Do what you like" thing :Rock On,TZP,Iqbal,Shikshanacha Aaicha Gho,etc.
There are some,who kno what they want,there are some,who like something,there are some,who's extremely fond of certain things,there are some,who are so damn passionate about certain things and there are those,who work towards them,to ACHIEVE something with it.
A major discussion wit a friend,lead me to this thought:Its better not to convert your passion to a profession.Ofcourse,there are lots a conditions that applies to it.And these relate more to the creative ones: music,art etc.
Excerpts:
1.A profession,ultimately leads to certain aspects,some being,success,money,growth etc.Its JUST not the extravagant fondness, enthusiasm, or desire anymore.
2.You follow what you are fond of,amidst support from near ones,or worse,major discouragements.Any which ways,that would definitely increase your resolve into actually getting into it,but the fact remains,you always have this pressure of doing well in whatever that you have stepped out for.
3.You work hard,you struggle,you strive to reach somewhere.I am not saying, its the money that you looking for,but yes,there's a threshold,below which you may not afford to carry something only bcs you are passionate about it.
4.It starts hitting you after a certain period of time,that you ain't going anywhere in the profession that you have just entered.Yes,the joy would still remain,but sadly,its no longer ONLY the joy that you want here,there are some add-ons,that you'd want too.
5.If you are passionate about something,you'd work hard,you'd be good,you'd be ultimately that good,that there's no stopping you.You'd be noticed,you'd move ahead,you'd get the satisfaction (joy + more joy).
6.You were simply happy with your passion for that thing.But now,the happiness comes with strings attached.The constant thought about your growth chart,your steps towards your dream,goal etc.
7.You wud have never thought of success and failure,then,when you were simply painting,or creating music,or dancing,singing etc.You have introduced these 2 terms in your journey when you make that as your profession.
8.The "fall-back plan" starts working in your mind.You gotta have a back-up profession or anything to sustain,in the event of any mishaps.
9.Your passion may just die in the pursuit of happiness.
10.Wrong move.Period.
There's a restaurant that me has frequented.They have live ghazals for the patrons.Now,it could very much be the kinda songs that this dude sings,that you do have this feeling,that he's sooo sad.But still,fact remains,that this guy,above 44 yrs old,singing in a restaurant,must have been surely passionate about singing in some point in his life.I am,obviously assuming things here,probb,this may not be his full time thing and again,it cud be,as well.Probb,he's doin it for his love of music,or probb,this is the only thing he has got, to feed himself.Probb,he does this because he likes doing what he's doing,or probb this is the only thing that he can do for his needs.I'd neva kno (well..i can actually,i just have to strike a conversation with him,but dat's not happening soon :P :P ).But yes,the point being,I see a man,who must have thought or dreamt of something better and bigger with his passion for singing.He must have tried real hard,but his preparation dint meet an opportunity for him to have his luck turned around.There would be many people within and around us,who'd be struggling from the day they realised their passion but never could make it.And yes,there'd be many,who just got better-off with it.
Keeping your passion alive,isnt going to kill you,but trying to keep yourselves alive just with your passion,MIGHT!!.
I do have success stories with me,of people I kno,or sum1 whom I kno,knowing.But they are in all the "Doing-what-I-always-wanted" stage.They are doing,or have got into what they always wanted to.And yes,its only thru the hard work and the enthusiasm they had.
As I mentioned,my apprehensions lie with those kinda passions where its you creative chord that plays.The so-called hobbies that helps you relax kinds.And these uncertainities and fear should not hold you back from venturing into anything that would always wanted,but hell,that's what I gotta say about it.
People who always wanted to get into medicine,architecture,engineering would no doubt,work hard and do well and yes,end up well too,with no regrets whatsover in following what they always had in mind and bloody nailing it.
Nevertheless,there's an ample amount of RESPECT that I hold for those, who do have a passion.Its not easy to recognise your skill in and love for something.And its even harder to pursue it.But just that,some things that makes you happy,should be kept just for that:For the JOY of doing it.
Do what you are passionate about,you'd be really happy!!.
Better still,turning your passion,to a profession,there would never be a dull moment in your life!!.
Passion:A strong or extravagant fondness, enthusiasm, or desire for anything.
Few of the recent movies,that I can remember,which conforms to the above "Do what you like" thing :Rock On,TZP,Iqbal,Shikshanacha Aaicha Gho,etc.
There are some,who kno what they want,there are some,who like something,there are some,who's extremely fond of certain things,there are some,who are so damn passionate about certain things and there are those,who work towards them,to ACHIEVE something with it.
A major discussion wit a friend,lead me to this thought:Its better not to convert your passion to a profession.Ofcourse,there are lots a conditions that applies to it.And these relate more to the creative ones: music,art etc.
Excerpts:
1.A profession,ultimately leads to certain aspects,some being,success,money,growth etc.Its JUST not the extravagant fondness, enthusiasm, or desire anymore.
2.You follow what you are fond of,amidst support from near ones,or worse,major discouragements.Any which ways,that would definitely increase your resolve into actually getting into it,but the fact remains,you always have this pressure of doing well in whatever that you have stepped out for.
3.You work hard,you struggle,you strive to reach somewhere.I am not saying, its the money that you looking for,but yes,there's a threshold,below which you may not afford to carry something only bcs you are passionate about it.
4.It starts hitting you after a certain period of time,that you ain't going anywhere in the profession that you have just entered.Yes,the joy would still remain,but sadly,its no longer ONLY the joy that you want here,there are some add-ons,that you'd want too.
5.If you are passionate about something,you'd work hard,you'd be good,you'd be ultimately that good,that there's no stopping you.You'd be noticed,you'd move ahead,you'd get the satisfaction (joy + more joy).
6.You were simply happy with your passion for that thing.But now,the happiness comes with strings attached.The constant thought about your growth chart,your steps towards your dream,goal etc.
7.You wud have never thought of success and failure,then,when you were simply painting,or creating music,or dancing,singing etc.You have introduced these 2 terms in your journey when you make that as your profession.
8.The "fall-back plan" starts working in your mind.You gotta have a back-up profession or anything to sustain,in the event of any mishaps.
9.Your passion may just die in the pursuit of happiness.
10.Wrong move.Period.
There's a restaurant that me has frequented.They have live ghazals for the patrons.Now,it could very much be the kinda songs that this dude sings,that you do have this feeling,that he's sooo sad.But still,fact remains,that this guy,above 44 yrs old,singing in a restaurant,must have been surely passionate about singing in some point in his life.I am,obviously assuming things here,probb,this may not be his full time thing and again,it cud be,as well.Probb,he's doin it for his love of music,or probb,this is the only thing he has got, to feed himself.Probb,he does this because he likes doing what he's doing,or probb this is the only thing that he can do for his needs.I'd neva kno (well..i can actually,i just have to strike a conversation with him,but dat's not happening soon :P :P ).But yes,the point being,I see a man,who must have thought or dreamt of something better and bigger with his passion for singing.He must have tried real hard,but his preparation dint meet an opportunity for him to have his luck turned around.There would be many people within and around us,who'd be struggling from the day they realised their passion but never could make it.And yes,there'd be many,who just got better-off with it.
Keeping your passion alive,isnt going to kill you,but trying to keep yourselves alive just with your passion,MIGHT!!.
I do have success stories with me,of people I kno,or sum1 whom I kno,knowing.But they are in all the "Doing-what-I-always-wanted" stage.They are doing,or have got into what they always wanted to.And yes,its only thru the hard work and the enthusiasm they had.
As I mentioned,my apprehensions lie with those kinda passions where its you creative chord that plays.The so-called hobbies that helps you relax kinds.And these uncertainities and fear should not hold you back from venturing into anything that would always wanted,but hell,that's what I gotta say about it.
People who always wanted to get into medicine,architecture,engineering would no doubt,work hard and do well and yes,end up well too,with no regrets whatsover in following what they always had in mind and bloody nailing it.
Nevertheless,there's an ample amount of RESPECT that I hold for those, who do have a passion.Its not easy to recognise your skill in and love for something.And its even harder to pursue it.But just that,some things that makes you happy,should be kept just for that:For the JOY of doing it.
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
And a decade later.........
Over the years of getting to know so many ppl,gud ones,close ones,dear ones,i think I can safely conclude,dat only liqeur and wedding brings us all together.Ya ya,ofcrse,der r exceptions,bt still,it holds true.. :) :)
A frend brot it to mah notice,dat d bunch dat we are,its been almost 10 years,since we been knowin each other.First thing,u go like "Fck!! 10 years??whoa..dats long!!!.".Next thing is d more obvious one:that we gettin older.
Nevertheless,der hav been sum real nice moments amongst the so called working professionals,where d conversations dont really go beyong sulkin abt work and boss-bashing.Followed by few references to d common knowns,abt dem gettin married etc.Then catching few lines dat serves as reminders to d old memories..Well..obv,d agenda doesnt sound all dat tempting.But its exactly how it is!!.But den,wit all dis,if u still can walk off with a feeling about hw much u wanted dis meet to happen,den nuthn like it.
Ten long years of knowin sum of d finest ppl around.Its Cheers!! To them all...
A frend brot it to mah notice,dat d bunch dat we are,its been almost 10 years,since we been knowin each other.First thing,u go like "Fck!! 10 years??whoa..dats long!!!.".Next thing is d more obvious one:that we gettin older.
Nevertheless,der hav been sum real nice moments amongst the so called working professionals,where d conversations dont really go beyong sulkin abt work and boss-bashing.Followed by few references to d common knowns,abt dem gettin married etc.Then catching few lines dat serves as reminders to d old memories..Well..obv,d agenda doesnt sound all dat tempting.But its exactly how it is!!.But den,wit all dis,if u still can walk off with a feeling about hw much u wanted dis meet to happen,den nuthn like it.
Ten long years of knowin sum of d finest ppl around.Its Cheers!! To them all...
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Timing:
U wait for something.U wait for it very very patiently.U wait for it for a long long time.U try.U keep trying.U try harder.U think lots.U think more than u supposed to.It more becomes of u waiting for a time to come,rather than the something dat u been waiting for.It happens as such,that something, isnt there in ur mind anymore,but,it is the someTIME that u luking for.
U start looking for a thing;it ends up being a time that u wait for..Do u jst lose focus on ur interest? or do u just feel its better to stay put and let things occur wen it has to?
A long wait always successfully manages to drown out the excitement.A long wait ensures that ud obviously want EVERYTHING out of whatever that u WANTED and u wudnt want to settle for any compromise.only nd only bcs u waited this long!!...The excitement is only wen u get wot u wanted,AS IT IS...else,its nothing short of a dampener..!!
U start looking for a thing;it ends up being a time that u wait for..Do u jst lose focus on ur interest? or do u just feel its better to stay put and let things occur wen it has to?
A long wait always successfully manages to drown out the excitement.A long wait ensures that ud obviously want EVERYTHING out of whatever that u WANTED and u wudnt want to settle for any compromise.only nd only bcs u waited this long!!...The excitement is only wen u get wot u wanted,AS IT IS...else,its nothing short of a dampener..!!
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Atta Boy
"Good good.Sandeep,very good"
"the good thing is,he's so closely involved,even during........."
"great job.keep it up."
And the barrage of Goods kept coming.From all ends.For over a period of days.
But it dint make me feel good even for once.Not even for a minute.Good things were being said,nice things were being said,each thing was justified,all heads nodded in acceptance,received the longest footage amongst them all,but still,not even once,did it make me feel good,proud or anything for that matter.
I wouldnt say,I keep getting them.On the contrary,this came after a long time.Not that I ever wanted it,or secretly hoped for it,just that,its more of the fact that I feel this came for the wrong reasons.Again.Its a guess,i may not be right here..but then being around for long and knowing the bunch,does cement it.
Months back,there occured few conversations.Coupla of them,long ones,short ones,threatening ones,disappointed ones,dissent ones,unapproving ones,bad ones..And I see this appreciation for my effort as an outcome of those and not bcs they really do.
"Been really good.Now we got one challenge that we think you may be able to do it.We want you to ........."
Normally,a person would be all charged up.Taking it up,highly motivated and begin to get going.But not me.I dint see it as an extra work that was asked outta me,just that I simply saw it as motivation techniques,making me feel important,etc etc..I simply pushed it away.I knew it right then,me aint getting mahself to do it either.It was like :"oh.yeah??...balls"....
I wana tel them,these aint gona work wit me.Save the niceties for someone else.Save the bouquets,cheers,claps,cmon's,'u can do its',goods,...I dnt need them and they aint gona help one bit.Dont play with words and sentences,for me aint gona get tricked by them.Stay away from me,else either of us wouldnt like it.
Dunno if its abt me.Dunno if its abt them.
For all I kno is,things around aint cool as I'd want it to be.Its getting static.They refuse to see things thru.I refuse to believe that they seeing it as well.I refuse to believe that they are trying as hard as they claim to be.I refuse to participate.I refuse to play ball
"the good thing is,he's so closely involved,even during........."
"great job.keep it up."
And the barrage of Goods kept coming.From all ends.For over a period of days.
But it dint make me feel good even for once.Not even for a minute.Good things were being said,nice things were being said,each thing was justified,all heads nodded in acceptance,received the longest footage amongst them all,but still,not even once,did it make me feel good,proud or anything for that matter.
I wouldnt say,I keep getting them.On the contrary,this came after a long time.Not that I ever wanted it,or secretly hoped for it,just that,its more of the fact that I feel this came for the wrong reasons.Again.Its a guess,i may not be right here..but then being around for long and knowing the bunch,does cement it.
Months back,there occured few conversations.Coupla of them,long ones,short ones,threatening ones,disappointed ones,dissent ones,unapproving ones,bad ones..And I see this appreciation for my effort as an outcome of those and not bcs they really do.
"Been really good.Now we got one challenge that we think you may be able to do it.We want you to ........."
Normally,a person would be all charged up.Taking it up,highly motivated and begin to get going.But not me.I dint see it as an extra work that was asked outta me,just that I simply saw it as motivation techniques,making me feel important,etc etc..I simply pushed it away.I knew it right then,me aint getting mahself to do it either.It was like :"oh.yeah??...balls"....
I wana tel them,these aint gona work wit me.Save the niceties for someone else.Save the bouquets,cheers,claps,cmon's,'u can do its',goods,...I dnt need them and they aint gona help one bit.Dont play with words and sentences,for me aint gona get tricked by them.Stay away from me,else either of us wouldnt like it.
Dunno if its abt me.Dunno if its abt them.
For all I kno is,things around aint cool as I'd want it to be.Its getting static.They refuse to see things thru.I refuse to believe that they seeing it as well.I refuse to believe that they are trying as hard as they claim to be.I refuse to participate.I refuse to play ball
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